LIFE IS MEANINGLESS
to mii now
its not tat i think too much...
its jus tat i must face da facts...
tat im miserable....
lonely...
depressed...
fustrated....
confused...
jealous...
hopeless...

i cant help but feel all these but its all true happening to mii...
its jus happenin too often these daes...
tat i cant take it...
i have no one to turn to...
sb suitable hu will listen n understand mii...
n noe waz rite n waz wrong...

myy friends now (no offence) jus doesnt have da same interests wif mii...
n i desperately need sb to share everi thing...
i cant keep everi thing inside myy hart...
it will burst...

im alwaes jealous when ppl have happi lyfe...
i ask God whyy am i different...
whyy am i sufferin...
wadd or who have i offended...

im not talkin craps here...
its TRUE...

okayy its mii back again...
todae got wadd health check up in skool n spot check on apperance...
gawk...
i have to remove everi thing...
myy top piercin have to change transparent one...
remove nail polish...
cut nails...
luckily didnt get caught of ani thing...
da health check up i no need do da forward bendin thingy coz euu noe euu noe...
so gd no need to strip...
heard need to take out EVERI THING this tyme round...
everi yr different ppl different method of doin...
i scared i have to wear specs lehxx...
cannot reeli read da list...
sarah can read so fast lyke machine gun...
G.T got da wishlist rite? i oso have...
but its MUCH MUCH longer than hers...
n its gonna increase over tyme....
next post>>>
kayy, i finally got back myy comp... im SOOOOO despo forr myy comp
i miss it... i luv it... i sacrifised myself to be wif it... lol
started having mood swing again since yesterdae afternoon...


jus being bothered by all da problems in myy damn lyfe...

jus dunno how to deal wif it...

wif nobody to help mii...

nobody to support mii, keep mii on da right track n not go astray....


but finally okayy after chattin wif estalla thru sms...
i alwaes need sb to burst out myy feelings euu noe...
as per normal...
i finally come to a conclusion - having a long bath, paintin myy nails black, wearin black, on loud stereo, furiously eatin chili tapioca doesnt HELP

onli waste myy money...
todae got sports dae n go discovery centre... i no voice after screamin so much... nobody talkin in da bus... so sian... finally kanch is online(kanch euu are honour!=))... coz tmr no skool... n imm so happi im over da moon... or over myy room.. i finally had a break after this fuckin stress out daes.. sigh... now i didnt rite myy diary so can express myy feelins here... i can sleep late once again... i hereby dedicate myy love to kanch... myy ghurlfriend... i dunno whyy.... just wanna mention ya... ya a great lady n i love ya alwaes xoxo
ive finally finished! yeah... im sweatin da hell out of mii... tmr got sports meet... hope can see jolene n couz! (advertise my blog!)