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In the beginning

I was a primeval dot in the Universe
In the beginning, if the Universe began
Because I ripped myself apart
In glorious combustion,
Then how did I come to be there In the beginning?


Name of human: Jiayi.
Gender: Female.
Ngee Ann Sec's 4R3'09
gothic_punkchic@hotmail.com

affiliates
6a.Class.2005 Alan Alster Amy Amira Ashilah Assiddiq Atikah Benny Blossom Brenda Calise Candice Cassandra Carolyn Clara Craig Daphne Debbie Denise Denise Khoo Dionis Dickson Edwin Estalla Esther Filza Fitri Geraldine Haziq Jane Jasmine Jasper Jia rong Jing Yang Joleen Jolene Jolyn Joyce Junnie Jun Wen Karmaine Kary Kenneth Kimberly Ang Kimberly Tay Liu Jing Maisarah Min Lin Michelle Pamela Pearlyn Tan Pearlyn Wong Rachel Han Reuben Ng Russell Sam Sarah See Yuen Shermaine Sheryl Shi Mei Shirley Sijia Sofia Thaha Tian Hoe Tong Xin Victor Wei Xian Xin Yao Xue Yun Yang Hui Yiliang Yuhin Zena Zhen Feng Zhi Sheng

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Sunday, April 29, 2007 `` 4/29/2007 11:24:00 AM
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After a whole day of maths yesterday, nite tyme was movie fiesta!
Watched Crossroad.
I love Britney's abs!
It curves in!
Luks veri fit.
Unlike now.
Bald Britney!
Haha.
But the movie is pretty okay.
The setting luks lyke one from The Simple Life.
Especially when one of the girl said, "Where the hell are we?!?"
So Paris Hilton.

Next up is The Janice Dickinson Modelling Agency.
Janice is sooooo... demandin.
Such a b****.
I love the part when this guy was asked to strip off his clothes so his body could be judged.
Only til the underwear mind ya.
Luk lyke one from Calvin Klein.
Then this guy whose amount of muscles could be compared to 5o cents pasted smily faces stickers on the guy's body coz his body is lyke so.....
W.O.W.
Muscles everywhere.
Denn Janice asked hymm to shake his ass's muscles.
The ass was lyke... vibrating.

Last of all, there is The Affair Of The Necklace.
Jolyn watched too, didnt she?
It was set in the 18th century, just before the French Revolution i think.
Hilary Swank's face is lyke so.... bony.
Her checkbone could be seen clearly.
Makes her luk veri mature.
But her hair sucks mann.
The guy wif her, which is actually a gigolo, was cute.
His face is so clean.
And his voice sounds very young.
Her actually husband is okay.
But he has six pacs.
When the camera zoom in to his body, i was lyke, one.
Two.
Three.
Four.
Five.
Six.
Nice one.
Sume parts i dunn reeli understand coz of their language.
But at the last part, the lady was caned and burnt wif a mark in public.
I dunn believe it.
I tot ppl are more conservative in the past?
You could see the agony n pain on her face.
Her snowly white skin slashed.
And this part i was gasping, they burnt her wif a mark "V" (Villian) on her breast.
Another one is even worse or not.
The Queen, which i dunno wadd crime she commited, was beheaded using the gullotine.
How cruel.

Friday, April 27, 2007 `` 4/27/2007 07:10:00 PM
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I feel as though this mornin we were all entangled in the web.
Now we are UN-entangled from the web.
BUT we are still not in the correct position.

For the past few days, i tot, if we didnt do ani thang, i could still live through this.
Im afraid ani thing changed would be even worse.
Denn reeli, euu wont see mii ani more.

I told ya i always screw up relationship, no matter wadd kinda.
IT DOESNT HAVE TO BE BGR.

I am not strong, as proven today.
Joyce is the stronger one.

I wanna live my lyfe honestly.
Cause i wont noe how long will i live on this world.
I wanna enjoy my lyfe as much as possible.
I wanna have my happiest moments in this lyfe.

Ya noe when i watched the Avril Lavigne's DVD, i was feelin one thang all tat moment.
ENVY.
Her lyfe seems perfect.
Shes happily married.
Her husband treats her well.
(Btw Dereck or wadever spellin, is kinda cute actually. But his face luk lyke Justin Timberlake)
Shes still veri playful.
Shes over the adolence stage.

Everything's all a chain.
One thing affects another, which causes another problem and so on.
Its never endin.
BUT!

Sb has to put an end to this.
It cant goes on forever.

A special message to Estalla, Jolyn and last but not least Superwoman Joyce,
We must be strong.
We cant run away from the truth.
We will face them together.
We will go through all hell and heavens together.
WE ARE NOT ALONE.
*yeah i noe, no sentence variation*

To Blossom,
We dunn blame euu.
And euu dunn have to put a border between euu and us.

To the guy hu sumehow or other interfere in this chain,
We seriously wanna sae, "FUCK OFF OUR LIVES!"
BUT!
Let bygones be bygones.
I dunn wann euu to torture or blame urself.
No advantage to us.

Let's start a new chapter, a new page.
No use blamin on the past.
Even though history cant be erase.
BUT!
The future is more important.
Let mii hope us well.
God bless.

Thursday, April 26, 2007 `` 4/26/2007 06:10:00 PM
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"Innocence" by Avril Lavigne

Waking up I see that everything is OK
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]
This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

Wednesday, April 25, 2007 `` 4/25/2007 05:15:00 PM
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Oh no the water bucket is leakin' again! Can sb come fix it?

Even though i tell myself i wont suffer from any eatin' disorder but...
Sometimes the damn feelin' jus come back.
I ask myself this ques sometimes, if i were to choose between anorexia or bulimia, i will choose anorexia.
Im tired of puking after all those times.
But today on the bus ride back, i feel sick of the oreo coffee ice blended.
I wanna puke it all out.
I wanna lose 6 kg, though its impossible unless i fall real sick.
Ive always agreed, tat Nicole Riche is ultra skinny.
Temptation is hard to resist.
But dunn worry ppl, i wont do ani thang.

I dunn like bein' forbidden.
Why must everything be in secrecy?
We aint doin ani thang unlawful.

Monday, April 23, 2007 `` 4/23/2007 09:52:00 PM
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Today was a er.... great day?
Coz i got to skip classes?
Yes.
Nervous?
Okay.
What im reeli scared bout is wadd we will get, which definately not wadd i will lyke.
Actually wanna bathe in skool.
But never.
We had Mac forr lunch!
Like its a big deal?
My hair was real stiff after puttin on tons of gel, 9 clips and hair spray on.
Shafiqah was the make up artist forr eye shadow while mii is, of course, forr eyeliner!
My favourite.
But it seems tat i put even thicker than the Malays?
It was kinda fun puttin on make up as it distracts our attention from the anxiousness.
Once we stepped out of the AVA room, comfirm receive lots of weird stares.

On the bus, we were real quiet.
At NUS, what i can sae is.
WOW.
There were lyke different skools in different costumes.
Some of them were real nice mann, show off their figures.
And of course, there were guys *yum yum* who were half nude paradin round the place.
But their bodies were not wadd euu will call damn fit but still okay.
At least its nude. =)
Duh, i sound lyke a pervert.

We were givin each other encouragin hugs before enterin the stage wings.
Its gonna be our big moment.
Tat onli comes in 2 yrs.
We dunn wann others to luk down on us.
WE ARE NOT SHIT.

The dance before us was a happy one.
Like in the Dukes.
Actually dance oso includes lots of drama n actin inside.
Most... Er okay ALL of the skools have sound effect.
Shoutin or wadd.
Unlike us.
But wadd more do euu expect from a sad dance?

I guess we put in a lot of effect forr emotions but technical and timin likewise, suck.
Btw, DM and vice principal were in the audience too.
Euu noe it was kinda scary when i finally leave my head up and face the judges and i see spotlights shinin under them in the dark makin them luk scary.
After our performance we got to watch other skools too.

The most Unforgetable performance is by National Junior College(?).
At first euu see the ghurls were lyke conservative, doin tat kinda "choir" sort of dance.
Denn they suddenly rip off their clothin, revealin the red underclothes and rock to a hott and i reeli mean HOTT dance.
Gold wif honours is theirs mann.
And a lot of skools this yr is doin tat kinda "war" theme.
One of them can join wushu oredi, another is bout war between the chinese in the past dynasty and another is bout lyke wadd slaves breakin free?
The more we watched, the more we felt depressed forr ourselves.

Currently im gavin abit of headache.
Veri tired indeed.
Just feelin tat we could have tried even harder today.
But its over,
"What's done cannot be undone."
Tmr can sleep in class oredi, no Estalla to talk to.

Sunday, April 22, 2007 `` 4/22/2007 05:57:00 PM
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`` 4/22/2007 05:45:00 PM
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Have i lost myself?
I feel so.
Spending 80% of my time in front of the comp everi day.
When have i become so studious?
Whenever i think of your attitude, hey i have nuthin to sae.

"I am finished with you." The Kill, 30 seconds to mars.

I tell myself not to think too much.
Thanks Min Lin, Jolyn and Blossom hu have been dere forr mii, hearin mii complain n scream into the phone.

Time to concentrate on SYF tmr.
My body will jus produce adrenaline itself.
So calm mii down.
*Breathe in*
*Breath out*
Phew....

Friday, April 20, 2007 `` 4/20/2007 09:51:00 PM
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I bloody hate IPW.
I dunno spend how much tyme doin tat fuckin blog.
Even if I failed, I dunn care.
IVE TRIED MY BEST!
i dunn even have tyme to blog!
my habit is back, dunn euu realize?
almost everi post n words tat came out of my mouth is... fuck.
Sumemore my back still hurts from the crush into the table when Sheng Han chased after mii.
I think got bruise.

Izzit the hatred of euu or the frustration tats drivin mii bonkers now?
I cant luk at euu in the same way as last yr.


kill mii, baby.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007 `` 4/18/2007 08:23:00 PM
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Rmb the blood-stained chair yesterday?
Haha i havent mention before here.
Lets just start from yesterday's chinese lesson.
We all hate the relief tchr.
"Fuck You"
"Hello Bitch!"
Should be she got hear lah, or else she deaf or sth.
Dickson was playin Truth or Dare wif Sarah.
This is interesting.
After lesson, back to normal seating.
Dickson found out theres stain on his chair.
He was lyke, "EEE...."
Denn exchanged the chair wif tchr.
So today the stained chair is still dere.
Actually they wanna cheat Ka Lun into sittin on it.
But failed.
So tried on Jeremy.
Tat guy reeli veri blurr.
All eyes were on hymm when he sat.
It was so funny!
Then Craig told hymm, he still veri blurr.
HE EVEN WENT TO TOUCH IT!
OH GOOD GRACIOUS!
Denn Craig being the always disgustin guy he always has been, he cleaned it.

I charged my phone during HE after test.
The switch is jus beside mii, so why not make full use of it?

An Jasper is serious of pinning up his hair tmr.
He is so "lucky", kena caught by 3 tchrs on the same day for hair.
Includin rotten tomato.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007 `` 4/17/2007 07:53:00 PM
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A great work of penknife.
"I am fuckin hopeless."
no comments made.

`` 4/17/2007 07:51:00 PM
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"Break Apart Her Heart"
by Good Charlotte

When you call she doesn't answer, when you write she doesn't answer
You go out you see him with her, she told you she was sick at home
The ring you gave her thrown away with all the letters

And when you see him with her, he doesn't even care at all
As she follows him around like you follow her around
And he doesn't even care and your figuring out
The only way your gonna keep somebody around
Well I'm about to let you know

There's something I don't wanna understand
The only way a woman is gonna want a man
The only way you'll ever keep her in your hands
Is breaking apart her heart
Don't tell her she is the reason that you live
Don't give her everything that you got to give
If you want to keep the girl for as long as you live
Just break it apart her heart

Can't you see the way she's crying
Well that's what keeps her trying, she knew that she could have you
And he don't give her what she wants
There's truth about this, you say you want to be noticed
Well if you want to be noticed you gotta learn to break some hearts
Don't try to understand

There's something I don't wanna understand
The only way a woman is gonna want a man
The only way you'll ever keep her in your hands
Is breaking apart her heart
Don't tell her she is the reason that you live
Don't give her everything that you got to give
If you want to keep the girl for as long as you live
Just break it apart her heart

Can't you see what you've done?
What I've become, what I've become
Can't you see? Can't you see?

I don't understand this cruelty
I don't understand but now I see

There's something I don't wanna understand
The only way a woman is gonna want a man
The only way you'll ever keep her in your hands
Is breaking apart her heart
Don't tell her she is the reason that you live
Don't give her everything that you got to give
If you want to keep the girl for as long as you live
Just break it apart her heart

I don't understand this cruelty
I don't understand... its just not me
I don't understand this cruelty
But now I see

GC's new album kept talkin bout love, girls, blah blah blah.
But in a punk way rather than the pop way.
Let mii ask, is it revenge tat everi one is seekin?

Friday, April 13, 2007 `` 4/13/2007 10:11:00 PM
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Its funny to hear sume guys sing.
Much less Hilary Duff's "So Yesterday".
They better dunn sing out of tune.
I will run away.
Serious.

`` 4/13/2007 08:22:00 PM
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I feel cold.
And for a moment, afraid.
I feel lost and awful again.

Today is supposed to be a happy day.
SUPPOSED TO.
Everything was alright in the morning.
I wasnt being emo.
I just dunn feel lyke talking.
My mouth is tired.

Im glad tat in the events, our school got a lot of 1st and 3rd which most probably will make us second in position overall.
Yeah.
When we were in the toilet, we heard our school's name being called out and we were screamin.
Nobody else in the toilet anyway.
Ngee Ann won the cheerleadin competition too.
I was shocked.
I mean lyke hey, wadd much did we do compare to Chung Cheng?
They had DRUMS.
Wadd we have?
Claps (other schools also have)?

I kept snatchin min lin's cap.
Actually i practically snatched every single thing she has.
But its fun bullyin her.
So i see why Sheng Han seems to enjoy it.
Talkin bout hymm, a R5 guy said he had cancer coz of da white flakes on his face, neck n arms due to his bag.
I said im in stage one (white flakes due to Estalla's bag but not tat much compared) while he was in stage 5 (finally stage).
Gonna die soon.
Lol.

We took pics with the "Onion" mascot which is Sheng Quan at the time being.
Everyone enjoyed pushin the mascot 'round, includin Craig Chan.
He said he took a pic of the mascot's chest.
???

After this, we went to find the shuttle bus to take us to Jurong Point.
We saw one bus with a notice outside puttin "FORR NGEE ANN N DUMMAN",
so we tot we could take.
but alas, one of the dumman high tchr said, "THIS IS NOT FOR YOU! ITS ONLI FOR DUMMAN HIGH!"
Fuck hymm lah.

Jurong Point was crowded so we decided to go Vivo City.
Jolyn and i shared Korean Cusine, Chicken with Veg Soup and "Big Size Sushi".
Joyce met KS n i was utterly shocked at his luk.

I stretch out my arm and put it beside dickson's and said,
"See our tanned skintones! Ur one blacker while my one redder!"

After that its only left Pearlyn, Blossom and mii.
We fooled around at the pool at the rooftop.
It was so cool and we took a lot of stupid pics.
I dunn wanna care so much and sat down in the water so actually i am all wet.
I accidentally dropped Blossom's phone into the water.

Inside the building, we tried to change into ani dry clothes we had left.
It is weird and rare to walk in Vivo wif wet hair.
I saw a lot of nice shops but didnt get a chance to go inside.
Pearlyn bought a new top.
After tat she left first.

On the ride back, Blossom n I were veri quiet.
We just need sume peace.
Even though i was wearin Blossom's jacket, i was still veri cold. Inside and Outside.
At Pasir Ris Bus Interchange, i saw hymm.
I dunn feel happy, rather i felt more depressed.
I guess he doesnt have probs lyke mine.
He luks as if he had a perfect lyfe, wif a successful career ahead of hymm.
Unlike mii.

Though my fingers n toes are 10 degree celcius below normal body temperature, my body are lyke 10 degree above normal body tempterature.
Ironic huh?
My face, eyes, nose, skin are gettin redder.
Denn i realized i had sunburn.

Thursday, April 12, 2007 `` 4/12/2007 09:57:00 PM
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TODAY IS MY BLOG'S 1 YR ANNIVERSARY!

`` 4/12/2007 09:35:00 PM
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well today music we started learnin guitar.
okay, well no to mii.
n now da whole class noe i plae da guitar or in accurate words, I USED TO.
and i will be in deep deep trouble.
the new tchr, ms huang take over.
she looked lyke Priscilla, one of da seniors.
when i shouted Fall Out Boy when she mentioned bout bands, Sheng Han broke out wif "This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race".
i was lyke *open mouthed*
I DIDNT EXPECT HYMM TO NOE, MUCH LESS SING OUT LOUD!
i am not surprised when he sae he got mtv channel coz hu doesnt, except da poor mii over here?

i did ani wae how forr both english n litt tests.
wadever.

my hands are shakin cold when doin da litt.
ITS FREEZING!
kym too, denn durin da test she will touch my arm forr warmth, or izzit da other wae round?
craig is one of da last person i will think to be freezing cold in here.
how many layers of fats does he have more than mii?
ans will be unknown but its obvious.

jolyn send mii da link of da guitar tabs of "Disenchanted"
denn i try playin.
hey i got it!
i onli understand da beginnin part before Gerald starts singin.
but at least i got sth!
ITS A GREAT ACHIEVMENT!

Tuesday, April 10, 2007 `` 4/10/2007 09:03:00 PM
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`` 4/10/2007 08:50:00 PM
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FRIDAY.

went to Orchard wif Joyce n Estalla first.
joyce n i wore heels.
we were tryin to luk forr far east plaza but in the end, we went to Wisma.
topshop. topshop. topshop.
love everi thang over dere.
Joyce kept busily touching her hair.
Got a few inspirations from the outfit over dere.
Denn got this two passer by asked us where is taka.
We oso very blurr ourselves so we ani how gave direction.
we pass by a road show whereby this lil boii, round 7 years old, playin da drums in public!
OMG, GENIUS LAH!
I oso wanna learn!
We went heeren next.
Estalla n joyce are oredi startin to complain leg pain.
Well, everi one noes im a shoppin queen….
While rushin to meet jolyn n blossom, joyce left her cell phone at 7 eleven.
She reeli freaked out mann, but luckily da phone is still dere.
I tot somerset mrt station will be quite near but alas!
We were impatient by den so we took bus.
N guess wadd we saw at da next stop???
Doubty gaunt mrt station! (wadever spelt)
G-R-E-A-T.
We stopped at somewhere in bugis as I recognized da building as one of my relatives.
BUT!
We dunno how to go bugis mrt station from dere.
Joyce was so desperate (sry to sae tat!) tat she even offered to pay for da taxi fare.
So finally AND I MEAN FINALLY, we reached Bugis junction.
When we caught up wif blossom n jolyn, both of them were on da brink of tears coz of mine personal stuffs.
Okay so we learn sth.
Not to put jolyn n blossom together on a lonely day.
Jus lyke a cat n a mouse.
Jus a perfect place to meditate everi one is….. STARBUCKS! *yum yum*
Tried java chip frappucino.
Damn nice.
I drank da most proportion out of it.
We took lots of photos.
To my beloved blossom: ppl are the most prettiest when it comes from da hart.

SATURDAY.

da hall was occupied wif 3 different CCAs PLUS guest.
dance, band, volleyball, hai xing's band.
can euu imagine how izzit?
was waitin downstairs forr da guzheng ppl.
saw min lin, jolyn , estalla, amy n junnie runnin to da toilet to change out of their costumes.
they were all runnin in big steps.

nite didnt join family for buffet coz feelin veri full.
tune in to channel 5.
theres a movie, "A Walk To Remember" featurin Mandy Moore.
genre: romance.
and by da end of the movie, i got watery eyes.
i got reeli reeli reeli reeli touched.
i didnt noe Mandy Moore is so gorgeous when she was young.
but shes tall, but lukin veri veri sweet.
da guy, Shane West, is okay. okay! kinda cute actually... (tempation)
but his actions in the movie reeli touched mii a lot a lot a lot.
da movie started out lyke Step Up and High School Musical combined.
in a normal american high skool, its almost impossible forr a geek ghurl to be together wif a popular guy.
once euu are at da bottom of da social ladder, euu are dead, mann.
da ghurl has leukemia, and her wish is to marry in the church where her parents got married.
da guy did everi thang to fulfil da ghurl's last wishes.
includin turnin against his gang, buildin a telescope...
from a rebel who has no plans forr future, turnin into a guy hu appreciated lyfe n is successful.
yeah euu are rite, ghurl died.
at nite before sleep, i tot of it again.
tears reeli rolled down my cheeks this tyme.
da romance between them is better than Titanic! though i dunn rmb watchin Titanic.
i reeli love this movie.
it reeli touched da bottom of my hart.

SUNDAY.

Accompany estalla to buy her black shoes for guzheng performance.
Dirty fact file of estalla: she wore size 8. Kinda big huh?
When she wear da shoes, im practically kissin her chest.
Shows how short I am n how tall she is.
After tat actually went Giant to check out sth.
Denn it rained. Heavily.
It will be a miracle if I brought umbrella.
But im an impatient person.
I rather walk in da rain den wait for the rain to stop which is god noes wadd tyme.
So tats wadd I did.

Its was so crazy of mii to do this tat when I passed da crowded bus stop, everi one turned to luk at mii.
Wonderin, “hu da hell is this crazy ghurl?!?”
So back home, jus to add sumemore craziness, I went under da shower fully dressed.
It is a rare chance to do sth lyke tat izznt it?
But of course after tat I changed out to dry clothes.
END OF CRAZINESS.

i heard 'This Ain't A Scene, Its An Arm's Race' on Tv at nite.
everi one wif common sense noe i will rush out.
tv damn slow mann, da album dunno come out how long oredi now denn show.
same goes wif 'The Black Parade' disc last tyme.
guess wadd when i rush out, hu did i see first on da screen?
yeah euu are rite.
PETE WENTZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
denn i went to check out da mtv of "thnks fr th mmrs".
WAULAO, PETE IS KISSIN ANOTHER BIMBO AGAIN!
bet wif my lyfe hes not a virgin.
after watchin da video, euu will noe why he need to go forr anger management course.
check out da misheard lyrics of 'Thriller'.
waulao da person hu created this damn bad lah.
but veri funny.
waz even funnier is misheard lyrics of 'Bang The Doldurms'
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cpkvV20SCtc&mode=related&search=
i was laughin to myself by denn.

Monday.

My lit group met early before skool to rehearse under blossom’s hse.
Jolyn was “Justin”.
I was kinda excited to present da skit but after min lin’s skit, I lost hope.
Her group will always be da best.
Sigh.
Sumemore her music worked on da comp but ours didn’t.
So we use phone which is soft.
MY DANCE DANCE!
We are still bit impromptu.
Was real sian n tired durin science.
Was wishin I was one of da guzheng ppl.
My leg gave way n I kinda collapsed on da floor in front of quite a no. of ppl.
Damn embarrassin.
Denn English worse, gastric workin up.

I was again, stressed out when I rmb deres geog test da next day.
I was talkin real fast.
Actually tot durin tuition, I could study sth.
But!
Tuition was interestin tat dae.
I was still shootin words out of my mouth.
But im not da only one.
WE NEED DESTRESSIN!!!
Mii n Jolene complainin bout combined sports day while dionis n Rebecca are talkin bout their skool AND REBECCA’S LOVED ONE.
Da guy called keith too. Haha.
I still love Jolene as shes as horny as mii.

Tuesday.

Durin IPW, I was feelin real awful.
I cant stop feelin this way.
N I cant resist to luk at tat direction.
WHY MUST IT BE EUU?!?
Later I reeli feel physical pain to my hart.

Guzheng ppl performed durin assembly.
I dunn dare to scream ani more.
Da songs sang by da choirs are real cool.
Creepy yet unique.
Love it.

Got dance tee today.
Not bad lah.
Gonna wear new FBT!
Joyce accompany mii to TM to buy cake for my mother.
Today her birthday wadd.
Da cake is damn mini.
Broke wadd.

Thursday, April 05, 2007 `` 4/05/2007 10:47:00 PM
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i jus read a bk which is describin bout how da skool has changed wif a new grief and crisis counsellor.
he takes control of the whole skool, changin all da rules.
no cellphones, no chewing gums, no prohibited bks or cds by certain authors or artistes (not porn), no cosmetic products, no caps, no other forms of piercings, metal detectors, security guards....
AND IT ALL HAPPENS IN AN ALL AMERICAN HIGH SKOOL.
SOUNDS FAMILAR????
NO ITS NOT CONCENTRATION CAMP, EVERIBODY WILL MOST PROBABLY BE DEAD BY DENN.

YES, EUU SHOULD FEEL DA SAME WAY AS I DO.
just tat i think they are far worse than us.
even prohibited to wear ani thang got to do wif red coz it has got to do wif gangs n violence.
???
rite, reminds mii of sth.
"RED IS DEFINATELY NOT ALLOWED IN THE SKOOL."
DO I NEED TO PAINT MY LIPS BLACK TOO??? (skool color)
sounds goth, kinda cool ya noe.

everi one knows tat in an all american high skool, there are cliques.
goth, punk, skaters, jocks, nerds, bitches, rebels etc.
n of course, outcasts.
ani body imagine goths without eyeliner?
jocks without baggy pants?
nerds without books?
bitches without micro skirts?
ppl are stereotyped, whether euu lyke it or not.

if i were in the writer's situation, i DEFINATELY wont stand aside n fold my arms.
either i break down n bitch bout everi thang or i rebel.
da more euu push euu, da more i rebel.
but in real lyfe, i dunno if i have da courage to do so.
but i feel a NEED to shout it out loud.

sumetimes i see euu struggling in the river of love.
euu slap away my hand when i reach out to save euu.
i see the waterfall ahead.
yet i noe euu are too stupid. too stubborn. too foolish.
euu think euu can climb up to the shore.
all i can do is walk beside the river, guidin euu along.
i cant do ani thang more.

Tuesday, April 03, 2007 `` 4/03/2007 09:09:00 PM
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okay so our chinese blog is gonna be called "fried-bloodybanana".
actually is "cheena-banana".
but ms jamie tan think we insultin da cheena ppl.
so no choice loh.
but banana is a nice food, so we continue to replace da cheena word.
"banana-plus-jelly"
"vomit-banana"

health check up at the lib on 3rd storey.
sarah's shoes were found on da first storey later.
dunno hu throw one.
denn damn AKL VOLUNTEER to go down to take.
oya sarah has pick up craig's bad habit of snifflin shoes.
denn wei shan's shoe oso kena thrown down by yu hin.
denn unluckily, tat mr wong downstairs.
thank god never hit his head, or else whole class will die terribly.
but surprisingly he never come up n scold us.
after tat socks were either being thrown down or switched.
walao, heard mine is oso a victim of da second option.
at da foward bendin test, i still need to do it.
da nurse told mii to go to student health centre but denn i told her i discharged oredi.
NO WAY AM I GOIN BACK TO HELL!

oya n da guys lied to mii tat da female nurses asked them to show them their dicks.
n PULLED?!?
n i believed it coz sume of da guys came out coverin their parts.
fine, im dumb.

student investiture today.
da SC luk so formal n elegant.
n seeing sheng han n hassan wear long pants are jus plain, not used to it.
but might as well be used to it now.
forr min lin, i cheered while joyce screamed.
but denn forr kym, i screamed.
IN DA STILL ATMOSPHERE!
o god can euu imagine how embarrassin tat is???
those ppl round turned towards mii.
GREAT, WADD A HAPPY ENDIN.

durin lunch, i saw sth crawlin in front of mii.
us 4 were sittin at da bench.
denn my eyes widened.
"OMG! THERES A LIZARD!"
denn da rest of it was kinda funny.
us 4 springed out of our seats.
jolyn n joyce screamed.
da table behind us screamed forr fun.
yeah, add on to da atmosphere.
sumemore my food is brown lyke da lizard, surprisingly i could still swallow them later.
all along, sheng han hu is beside us, remained calm.
???? fine hes a guy.

dance, da cheena tchr came wif a pack of clothes.
i tot is da cca tee.
yeah.
not.
its da singlet tat we are supposed to wear inside.
n it turns out to be, GUESS WADD?
A PURPLE SWIMSUIT!?!
ewwwwwwwwwwww
its since how long ago i wore a one-suit?

on da bus back home, wif joyce, her wallet slipped down da "black carpet" of da bus.
it was slippin down da floor in slow motion denn joyce without panic, went foward n take it.
i cant stop laughing after tat!
its such a hilarious sight.

Sunday, April 01, 2007 `` 4/01/2007 09:04:00 PM
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"Victims Of Love" by Good Charlotte
Oh oh Oh oh Oh, Oh oh Oh oh Oh,
Oh oh Oh oh Oh, Oh oh Oh oh Oh,
Oh oh Oh oh Oh, Oh oh Oh oh Oh.
In the beginning, I tried to warn you
You play with fire, it's gonna burn you
And here we are now, same situation
You never listen, I never listen
Now I am thinking of a way that I can make an escape
It's got me caught up in a web and my hearts the prey
Do you really wanna throw your heart away, away, away?
Everybody's hurt somebody before
Everybody's been wound by somebody before
You can change but you'll always come back for more
It's a game and we are all just victims of love.
Don't try to fight it, victims of love
You can't decide it, victims of love
Oh oh Oh oh Oh, victims of love
Oh oh Oh oh Oh.
Now you've back tracked, you're running away
'cause it just happened again and you just want it to end
You're trying your best not to let yourself go cold, so cold.
Now you think about the things you thought you wanted to say
But when you open up your mouth it don't come out that way
Are you really gonna throw your heart away, away, away?
Everybody's hurt somebody before
Everybody's been wound by somebody before
You can change but you'll always come back for more
It's a game and we are all just victims of love.
Don't try to fight it, victims of love
You can't decide it, victims of love
Oh oh Oh oh Oh, victims of love
Oh oh Oh oh Oh, victims of love.
In the beginning, I tried to warn you
You play with fire, it's gonna burn you
And here we are now, same situation,
You never listen, I never listen
Everybody's hurt somebody before
Everybody's been wound by somebody before
You can change but you'll always come back for more
It's a game and we are all just victims of love.
Everybody's hurt somebody before
Everybody's been wound by somebody before
You can change but you'll always come back for more
It's a game and we are all just victims of love.
Don't try to fight it, victims of love
You can't decide it, victims of love
Oh oh Oh oh Oh, victims of love
Oh oh Oh oh Oh, victims of love.