I SWEAR DA INTERNET GONNA BAO AGAIN...
yesterdae go rent videos...
sky high n cry_wolf
watch sky high tat nite...
coz cry wolf heard is kinda horror...
later cannot sleep i come haunt euu...
kiddin...
sky high damn nice lehxx...
funny...
ani wae its in da middle of da nite when i was watchin...
da guy wif da fire-hands is SO HOTT!!!
so cool...
got da mysterious luk...
da will stronghold guy too short le...
da ghurls all taller than hymm...
i lyke tat ghurl hu have purple hair...
those kinda prep i lyke...
so kept starin at her clothes throughout da show...
I REGRET MISSIN THIS MOVIE IN DA CINEMA!
i onli left $1 sth in myy wallet n $1 sth in myy ez link card...
PPL TELL MII HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE DA MONTH?!?
da last few daes oso cannot unless i lend money again...
=(
everi body lukin at myy post CHEER UP kayy???
even if euu are feelin better than mii...
im jus compensatin forr da sadness ive been tortured last wk...
i feel lyke dyin last wk...
todae's message
"EUU LIE, EUU DIE"
familiar???
told myy mum i wasnt usin da internet...
but actually i am...
lolx....
hack care bout her...
=P
ani body notice tat myy mood is better todae?!?
WEE...
IM MAD!!!
okayy im reeli seriously goin mad when im happi...
hack care bout mii...
THANX TO DA "TWO COUNSELLORS"
**bow**
**smile***
**flashin myy teeth**
**WEE!**
zena ask mii go downstairs plae bball wif her seniors...
i veri shy again...
dunno them wadd...
deyy veri short lehxx...
seems to be myy height...
i think i even forget how to bounce da ball...
so have to start from da basic....
can manage to shoot two pointer sumetymes...
if im lucky...
or else either no strength or aim wrongly...
da $20 i lend from mii dad was gone by now...
...
plae badminton...
neva touch da racket since last yr if im not wrong...
but i can still plae...
so happi...
hit veri far sumetymes...
or else slanted...
i not pro wadd...
denn i kept sayin "oh shiiiiit!"
denn one of da guy go mimic mii...
normal daes i would have said fuck...
but i seems to have a lot of poses in it...
denn we go da 400+ dere JUS TO BUY BUBBLE TEA
denn walk back to white sands...
n take da bus back to myy hse...
we a bit crazy one...
i feel so dirty after da mornin...
ERMZ PPL ITS DA "STRAIGHT" KINDA DIRTY...
DUNN THINK SLANT SLANT...
after da bath called kanch...
yesterdae still didnt talk enough...
myy darlin...
i luv her...
at first seems to have nuthin much to talk bout...
denn we were blickerin wadd to talk bout n eventually this is a topic...
manage to talk forr bout 3 hrs...
myy ears hurt...
n myy phone is burnin...
jus charge tat nite denn now no battery le...
i swear i said "OMG" at least 20 tymes durin da conversation...
n i was rollin on da bed, whinin how cosy it is...
i feel lyke i totally melt into da bed...
but again i reeli wish tat "da person" will talk to mii...
n lets be normal lyke before...
DEAL?!?
OPEN UR EYES BIG N LUK AT MII CRYIN SILENTLY IN DA CORNER...
yesterday nite was fine after readin teenage dear kelly replies...
miracle...
todae in skool oso quite okayy...
last dae oledi...
gonna miss everi crappy ppl in this class...
NERDS, GEEKS, PREPS, COUPLES, SEXY PPL all in it!
im surprised i still have a mood to joke...
pierce again...
accompany joyce...
so i pierce one between da earlobe n da bone...
so total now i have 5 piercings...
go joyce's hse...
saw estalla across da block...
guys in 1r6 are quite pervertic...
so engrossed in tat jap anime show where da ghurl's skirt is WAE too short!
back home... mood turnin black again...
slept wif myy hair wet AGAIN!
cant help tat i have nuthin to do...
woke up... mood was reeli damn down...
N I REELI MEAN IT
i can commit sucide ani moment...
but i choose not...
thinkin bout tat incident again...
i cried...
n this tyme dere are tears available...
i cant help but when i think bout tat person or da person's name...
tears started flowin...
whyy is "da person" neglectin mii???
wadd da hell have i done?!?
dunn euu eva think of mii, how i will react?!?
ive been waitin forr "da person" to reply...
hassan wann mii to slit myy wrist coz im a goth...
goths are supposed to luv tat...
but i dunn wanna...
i didnt escape da fate of seein blood todae...
accidentally cut myyself..
but da wound still hurt...
even though im tryin to numb it...
no appetite again durin dinner...
i cant help but go teary-eyed...
cant face myy mum...
so went back to myy rm, lock da door, n "release" myyself...
done tat at least twice durin dinner...
obviously this is a veri damn big clue tat im not reeli myyself todae...
so mum asked...
HOW DO EUU EXPECT MII TO ANS?!?
SHE THOUGHT I GOT CHEATED BY SUME BASTARD...
wrong...
she wont undersatnd...
she wont eva understand...
n i neva eva gonna tell her wadd happened...
hide myyself in da rm da whole nite...
cryin, numbin myyself wif kelly clarkson's music(her music is sure a therapy)
n asked ppl "do euu eva get mood swing?"
I SWEAR THIS JUNE HOLIDAYS ARE SO GONNA BE TORTURE FORR MII
unless i solve tat problem...
HOPE GOD IS LISTENIN TO MII
PRAYIN FORR THIS TO GO BACK TO NORMAL AGAIN...
PLEZ...
I BEG YA...
(god bless, ppl, dunn end up lyke mii)
da art of pornography isnt onli to watch... its to feel da desperation in urself
da art of seduction isnt onli to flirt... its to feel da luv tat euu are given
da art of slittin ur wrist isnt onli to see da blood... its to feel da numbness of da pain
da art of screamin isnt onli forr fun... its to relieve da moods n feelings hidden in ur hart
da art of cryin isnt onli to drown out voices... its forr cryin out loud to da world
da art of murder isnt onli to kill... its to silence euu n da victim
da art of desperation isnt onli coz thangs go wrong... its to die terribly
da art of starin straight ahead blankly isnt onli euu are confused... its coz euu have lost to da game called LYFE
da art of nuthin isnt onli nuthin... its coz euu are DEAD
i understand sth...
sth tat has been botherin mii these daes...
sensitive ppl in skool should have realized tat im feelin depressed in skool
i realized sth...
ive been made a fool...
sth tat i have commited da second tyme
WHYY DO I HAVE SLOW REATION?!?
PPL OUT DERE SLAP MII
SLAP MII HARD SO I WILL WAKE UP
WAKE UP FROM DA ILLUSION TAT I HAVE BEEN LIVIN IN FORR SO LONG
FUCK MYYSELF
its all my fault
im not being a despo but i cant help it at tymes
KILL MII
PLEZ...
this is killin mii...
myy mind kept replayin tat scene
i feel lyke lyfe is meaningless at tymes...
too borin tat i think too much
n make simple things complicated... .... .... .... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
(currently cryin silently....)
OMG... AM I GOIN MAD?!?
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG...
JESUS HELP MII!!!!
BELOVED KANCH HELP!!!!
ANI ONE HU HAS A HAND HELP MII!!
IM KINDA DROWNIN....
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG...
DA THING IS I REALIZED STH TAT I AM VERI SURE OF
ALMOST 100% SURE...
N IT DEFINETELY DIDNT DO MII ANI GD...
I FOUND OUT STH...
NOT JUS WOMAN'S INSTINCT...
GOT EVIDENCE ONE...
IM GOIN CRAZY THINKIN BOUT STH...
SERIOUS...
TATS WHYY IM HERE "SCREAMIN" OUT LOUD TO EVERI ONE WITHIN DISTANCE
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG...
IZZIT GONNA BE TRUE?!?
(holy god bless...)
(mii weepin silently...)
_________PICK MII!!!____________
sume of da wires in myy head system have gone wrong...
so jus ignore mii...
dunno got so many ppl's birthdae...
yet didnt buy prezzie forr them...
i so bad...
next tyme will slowly slowly return...
now seriously broke....
so over here i will sae
HAPPI BIRTHDAE TO BLOSSOM!!!
KIMBERLY!!! (ex mps)
HAZIQ!!!
JING YUAN!!!
anybody oso congrats...
todae no hisory to study le...
so plae truth or dare...
da 6 of us...
squeeze myy brain juices...
must take revenge of myy tortures last tymes....
denn deyy sae i horny AGAIN!
sigh...
mii - horny???
no big deal to sae "are euu free tonite?" to a guy...
craig thought i sayin alien language...
shang han sae yes...
so...
MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!!
yeeeeaaahhhh....
stupid chinese lessons....
so bo liao...
take out myy phone again...
not listenin to tat guy talkin...
sarah "ding tui"
so darin tat ghurl...
yeaterdae still walk around in da canteen in front of everi one, da skirt wear high high...
o yea ran 2.4km run... 1 round oledi dyin...
so todae muscle pain...
i so totally no stamina le...
denn myy marks changed le -
english - dunn wanna sae...
maths - MINUS 2 MARKS LEHXX!!!
science - dunno got minus 1 mark or not...
history - got plus two marks but still failed... but overall i passed by 1.5 MARKS!!!
lit - b4
uh huh...
uh huh...
uh huh...
no dnt todae...
coz mr lee didnt come..
wann us self revision...
'cuse mii?!? exam is over n deres not gonna be ani dnt lesson ani more!?!
kayy one more...
denn we dunno wadd to do in class...
use phone oso sian...
denn hassan went on to da board n drew da "insertin, ejectin" action pic...
ya noe ya noe wadd i mean..
da horny horny side of it...
da ghurls were lyke "eek!"
denn mii was lyke cheerin
n i did agread tat porn is nice...
but i stick out myy tongue after tat...
half mean it onli...
so i guess onli hassan has da same "thinkin" as mii...
lolx...
thinkin HORNY is normal rite?!?
but not too much...
shouted this across da classrm to craig -
" F**K YOU, RETURN SIA!!!"
coz he took myy sketchbk...
he stupid...
myy wallet on myy table he dunn take....
everi one lukin at mii (i so happi)
let mii see if im not wrong-
= eng: FAIL
= maths : a1
= chinese: b3
= science : a1
= history : FAIL
= dnt : not bad... forget wadd oledi...
p.s da basketball guy is soooo cute!
refresh ur mind...
i noe i jus now post...
we(estalla, mii n joyce) were usin da phone durin class...
takin pics...
durin recess joyce even pose wif a HONEYDEW?
but nice da pic...
go toilet still usin da phone....
lolx...
estalla's skirt is gettin shorter n shorter dae by dae!
denn on da bus to WS
got a guy from tat weird weird skool...
he was peekin over at da 3 of us...
denn suddenly sae " ur photo veri nice"
we were lyke WADD?!? u talkin to us?!?
coz we were lukin at joyce's phone, da photos...
denn he (still beamin) sae" ur phone veri nice"
we scared of hymm liaox...
so we move away from hymm...
denn he walked to da front n started DANCIN?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
geez...
it was weird n scary...
p.s vin disel is soooo hott!!!!! he is meant to live on this planet forr ghurls lyke mii to drool over! omg! he is so totally hott n sexy... hes such a bad ass creature! im totally head over heels of hymm!
ELLO
got class phototakin...
formal n informal...
stupid..
have to stand in front of craig...
tat guy soooooo anoyin...
n i reeli mean it...
i think i will luk ugly ani wae...
sad...
mii will alwaes stay ugly (a voice in myy head sae luk on da bright side!)
denn we 6 sisters stand together...
i stand on da highest level!
i feel so tall!
i onli todae denn realize im more of da taller side of da ghurls...
GOOD!
cant find tat tchr again...
so sickenin...
go white sands after skool...
AGAIN!
YES AGAIN!
luk out forr ppl i noe...
but none...
coz still early....
bought a nightmare before christmas keychain...
luk more goth wadd...
still have not given up on da idea of a goth
GOTH ROXXXXXXX

xoxo, god bless

woah woah woah...

I TALK TO KANCH!!!!!!!!!!!

got in touch in her again...

we seem to have endless to talk bout...

we talk from justin timberlake(still her celeb crush) to da latest gossips to SEX???

yeah its true... believe it or not...

its so wonderful talkin to her...

i was standin on da bed n in another moment screamin in da living rm in front of everi one...

we are back to da olden daes...

sigh... luv her so much...

HERE GOES HOW WE ARE GOIN TO GREET EACH OTHER

we will be slowly walkin from oppos direction

denn we will start runnin towards each other...

den i will jump into her(since shes taller)

n cling to her lyke a koala

we will start kissin n huggin n ppl will be starin at us...

lyke we are lesbos...

actually we are kinda in sume kinda wae...

hopefully myy force izznt tat strong tat we both fall on da ground...

tats where all da real attention came in...

INTERESTIN? CRAP I NOE... MYY OWN FANTASY...

jua finished exams...
so happy...
but no more money to go out..
sad...
spent all myy money on all sorts of stuffs...
includin da wallet forr mother's dae(i so guai one!)
hopin she will help mii pay off da extra bill forr myy cell phone...
coz i noe bao le...
i spent a lot of money without thinkin these daes...
die die forr mii...
todae go out wif gt...
again... i noe...
bugis...
tm sian le...
over dere saw myy seniors...
scary... lucky i didnt wear skool uniform...
wear FOX top n m-industry skirt...
i noe im advertisin forr them...
neoprint shop veri temptin...
denn go OG...
gt kept peekin at mii when im changin...
i will laugh...
she HAVE MATCHIN LINGERIES... if ya noe wadd i mean...
lolx...
crap...
okie... finally pick up da keyboard n started doin gt's quiz

three names euu go by:
= jiayi
= yi-yi
= SJY

three screen names euu have had:
= silent slave
= ashlynn
= emo nightmare

three physical things tat euu lyke bout urself:
= myy eyes
= myy hips
= myy curves???

three physical things tat euu dunn lyke bout urself:
= myy pimple-prone skin
= myy tummy
= myy buck teeth

three parts bout ur heritage:
= erm...
= arh...
= duh...

three things tat scare euu:
= disgustin things n ppl
= too much bad luck fallin on mii (reeli its scary!)
= one dae step out of myy hse naked

three of ur everi dae essentials:
= cell phone
= myy rm! its got everi thing!
= friends

three things euu are wearin now:
= bra?
= undergarments??
= ermz....

three of ur fav bands or musical artists:
= my chemical romance
= the all american rejects
= son of dork

three of ur fav songs:
= no reason (sum 41)
= all about us (tatu)
= i never told euu wadd i do forr (mcr)

three things euu wann in a relationship:
= sex... no no... kiddin
= stability
= fun!

two truth n a lie:
= i died before
= im an emo
= i luv eyeliner

three things euu wanna do badly rite now:
= geez... hard... ermz... have fun...
= party tyme!
= be in a mtv!

three careers euu are considerin/ euu have considered:
= fashion stylist
= counsellor
= wardrobe stylist

three places euu wanna go on vacation:
= aussie
= america's los angeles
= america's big apple!

three kid names euu lyke:
= jesse
= jo-lynn
= no idea now...

three things euu wanna do before euu die:
= have a wonderful extraordinary relationship wif myy bf
= party til i die
= fulfil myy goals n wishes

three waes euu are stereotypically a boii:
= i am careless n rough
= i am slight horny
= attracted to ghurls especially their bodies tat can be die forr

three waes euu are stereotypically a ghurl:
= i have female genes
= i am attracted to guys
= i dunn have a dick forr god's sake!

three celeb crushes:
= brad pitt!
= jesse mccartney!
= orlando bloom... quite ex actually...

three ppl tat i would lyke to see take this quiz:
= ....
= anybody hu have a blog n now lukin at myy quiz...
= ...
hey hey hey....
back from science exam...
okayy la...
hope i did not so bad...
i was freakin hott under no fan...
poor mii....
denn i go white sands wif estalla n joyce...
craig same bus too...
he alwaes has this weird weird expression on his face...
denn at white sands...
saw ex mps... those from anglican ones...
estalla n joyce sae tyj's hair lyke chicken or izzit monkey's ass
lolz...
a lot of ppl loh....
denn at mac ( mohammad n haziq dere too)
suddenly sb tap mii real hard....
turn around...
i was screamin inside myy head...
ITS ASH!!!!!
since i last saw her wavin from across da road...
i was speechless...
but we didnt talk much...
saaaaaaaaddddd........... =(
denn joyce n estalla saw their own friends too...
denn we go lib...
saw ash again...
actually dunno how many tymes...
sian...
denn after tat go watson...
mii n joyce veri vain lah...
she wanna buy eye mask...
coz of her dark eyebags...
this type must ask mii...
i veri pro one..
so now at home after bath, in air con rm...
cool lyke hell...
SEX IS INTERESTIN... NOT TAT IVE DONE BEFORE...
IT JUS LUKS TO MII...
(i noe crap here)
SEX EDUCATION!!!
interestin...
FREAK FREAK!
i spent so long to fix this
i totally luv this video...
da tchr's boobs are jumpin up n down
lol
even though busted gone oledi...
but still got son of dork!
its mii...
i noe i veri long didnt update...
coz myy internet bao...
so now sneak...
cannot stand le...
in da middle of da nite...
myy replenish myy sleep too actually...
todae history exam...
at first do easy...
denn do until i leave blank...
dunn care lah...
denn after tat go tm...
shop here shop dere...
see a lot ngee anns too...
fridae wadd...
everi body relaxin...
denn myy mum wanna come tm too!
coz she veri long didnt shop...
so no choice have to meet up wif her...
veri embarrasin walkin round wif her when da others r wif friends...
go FOX...
i wanna buy clothes too...
FOX roxx!
denn see here see dere...
sms yao bao le...
must control...
still got one more week to go...
after all myy mum bought tat shirt which i targetted not long ago...
denn got tat free FOX bk...
so nice...
da ghurls n guys in dere are HOTT!!!
totally sexy...
''sb'' will puke...
tats wadd he sae if he eva watch porn again...
not exactly, rather exposure...
myy toe nails are a weird color... black, whyte n red...
i paint one so veri ugly...
not pro lah...
oya i oso bought myuk pencil case n orange nail polish...
broke once again...