Thursday, May 25, 2006
`` 5/25/2006 10:16:00 PM
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OPEN UR EYES BIG N LUK AT MII CRYIN SILENTLY IN DA CORNER...yesterday nite was fine after readin teenage dear kelly replies...
miracle...
todae in skool oso quite okayy...
last dae oledi...
gonna miss everi crappy ppl in this class...
NERDS, GEEKS, PREPS, COUPLES, SEXY PPL all in it!
im surprised i still have a mood to joke...
pierce again...
accompany joyce...
so i pierce one between da earlobe n da bone...so total now i have 5 piercings...
go joyce's hse...
saw estalla across da block...
guys in 1r6 are quite pervertic...
so engrossed in tat jap anime show where da ghurl's skirt is WAE too short!
back home... mood turnin black again...
slept wif myy hair wet AGAIN!
cant help tat i have nuthin to do...
woke up...
mood was reeli damn down...
N I REELI MEAN IT
i can commit sucide ani moment...but i choose not...thinkin bout tat incident again...
i cried...n this tyme dere are tears available...
i cant help but when i think bout tat person or da person's name...
tears started flowin...
whyy is "da person" neglectin mii???wadd da hell have i done?!?dunn euu eva think of mii, how i will react?!?ive been waitin forr "da person" to reply...
hassan wann mii to slit myy wrist coz im a goth...
goths are supposed to luv tat...
but i dunn wanna...
i didnt escape da fate of seein blood todae...
accidentally cut myyself..
but da wound still hurt...
even though im tryin to numb it...
no appetite again durin dinner...
i cant help but go teary-eyed...
cant face myy mum...
so went back to myy rm, lock da door, n "release" myyself...
done tat at least twice durin dinner...
obviously this is a veri damn big clue tat im not reeli myyself todae...
so mum asked...
HOW DO EUU EXPECT MII TO ANS?!?SHE THOUGHT I GOT CHEATED BY SUME BASTARD...wrong...
she wont undersatnd...
she wont eva understand...
n i neva eva gonna tell her wadd happened...
hide myyself in da rm da whole nite...
cryin, numbin myyself wif kelly clarkson's music(her music is sure a therapy)
n asked ppl "do euu eva get mood swing?"
I SWEAR THIS JUNE HOLIDAYS ARE SO GONNA BE TORTURE FORR MII
unless i solve tat problem...
HOPE GOD IS LISTENIN TO MIIPRAYIN FORR THIS TO GO BACK TO NORMAL AGAIN...PLEZ...I BEG YA...(god bless, ppl, dunn end up lyke mii)