am i livin in my own fantasy or wadd?
sumetymes i feel tat da life im livin jus izznt real.
lyke wadd my mum sae tat im always jing di zi wa (frog in a well)
yeah. im always livin in my own world.
i feel more better off n happier in my own world.
lock up in it. where no real person exist.
but it jus izznt real.
fantasy dunn last.
neither do da happiness nor cuteness of da real world.
its all fake.
da world is a lie. n ur lyfe is a game tat euu are forced to plae.
even if euu are at da losin end.
euu surrender, euu die.
euu cant forced a smile out of my face if deres nuthin to smile bout.
i sound soooo much lyke an introvert, but i am.

went out wif my cousin.
my mum was lyke over da moon when she noe tat
she tot i forgotten tat i have relatives.
supposed to meet couz at 11.30 n denn SHE LEFT DA HSE AT 11.30
so she had to treat mii coz shes late.
da cheesy sausage balls.

denn we went to bugis coz da thangs dere quite cheap n unique.
we went to watsons n i bought my silky girl white nail polish n hair moisturizer.
i tried da sunglasses dere.
not bad. i wanna buy.
now da in thing is big big sunglasses wadd.
my couz veri li hai, in this shop oredi spent $30++
all cosmetics lehx.
eyeliner, eye shadow set, nail polish, eyelashes curler, brushes.
but not learn from mii kayy, btw shes sec 2.

saw this shop da tops veri damn nice.
tried a few.
but a bit ex denn scared later not enuff to buy other things so i see how.
but hardly i can set my eyes on sume clothes.

at da edge, da skirts not bad.
but mostly shops sell is straight tight skirts which i dunn reeli prefer.
got this skirt, dark grey wif pink linings not bad.
but micro short.
denn my couz tried on this skirt.
quite nice.
but she spent too much jus now so she ordered first.
next tyme i come n help her buy.

at bugis street, da clothes are so n so.
but eventually i never go buy tat top i saw at da bugis junction.
coz i had sth in mind.

go marina square.
bought a tie.
lady s kind.
i wanna match wif shirt.
denn will be veri nice.
im exhausted.
but i still havent bought much.
i will not go back without buyin ani decent clothes.
help my couz put eyeliner.
ASK DA EXPERT!
actually wanna go suntec le but we saw sth more interestin.
its oso marina square but seems lyke i never come to this place before.
I FINALLY FOUND DA FACE SHOP!
denn i asked my couz helped mii try try da nail polish on mii.
oso go the make up store.
euu noe ppl will try try da color of da eyeshadow on their finger rite?
so i try try denn wipe on my couz s face.
so she took revenge.
eventually i was squirmin n screamin in da mall.
*pai seh*
denn at another nail polish shop we try try nail polish.
until now my left fingernails are all in 5 different colors.
lit pink, oceanic blue, sea green, transparent wif glitter n hott pink.

at suntec i finally bought a shirt from bum.
i wanna slipped down onto da floor by denn.

*one bad thang bout goin out wif couz. mum will ask a lot where i go n wadd i buy. but i didnt sae ani thang. but less words doesnt mean less naggin. its still da same.*