Yesterday was over and today im fine without you

*i dunno wadd lyfe is goin on n wadd game god is playin wif mii
im jus lost n confused.
vulnerable.
i jus feel helpless once again.
lyke a helpless lil bird whose wings are broken.
sumetymes im afraid to face lyfe as wadd it is now.
afraid to make da wrong step.
no idea whether to release the daring spirit in mii or jus be da scaredy cat ive used to be.
wheres da real mii i had no idea.
hidden sumewhere on this world.
where i had to go through different kinds of obstacles to get wadd i wann.
nuthin is cute or perfect.
the world is a dark place to live.
unless sb show mii along da right path back to the way of light.
but im yet again afraid to trust da wrong person
i dunn need another one to ruin my lyfe.
i jus need ur guidance.
jus a lil push i need from euu.
euu can do tat, dont euu?*

actually i wanna find sb to relieve those words hidden inside my hart for lyke 1 day tat i couldnt stand it.
but jolene dunn feel lyke gettin out of her damn hse.
so we talked on da phone.
n i interrupted her watchin goong!
i wanna watch too!
but i think tyme heals so im better now.

today i sms damn lot until i swear my fingers gonna break soon.
i think roughly i sent bout 90 sms todae
until i can spent 1 hr sweepin da floor n not finished yet.
pro mii!
denn haziq veri bored coz he fastin denn nuthin much to do.
but i think i sms hymm first to dunno ans wadd.
he lyke no limit over his sms one.
but all i wanna sae is HAZIQ IS A .... (CENCORED VERSION)
actually deres damn lot tat i scolded hymm which im not gonna list them all down or else later his hart breaks denn not my prob lah.
i realized tat i forgot to bring my readin log n home econs txtbk back.
crap mii.
so i asked forr sume newspapers from haziq as he exaggerated tat he got a WHOLE STACK at home.
denn he live nearby so i took it from hymm.
da WHOLE STACK OF NEWSPAPER turns out to be one TODAY newspaper which is published in july?!?
so after tat durin sms i tempt hymm bout food.
i sae tat im eatin a choco chip ice cream which is meltin in my mouth.
which jus happens to be true.
after tat we played badminton.
suddenly i sux.
dunno izzit da wind or wadd.
but i still got da strength to often hit out.
n he suggested to if ani one of us win 5 tymes da person will be rewarded to ask a TRUTH question from da other.
but eventually we jus ask as per normal.
n i found out quite sume stuffs bout hymm.
denn later we went to da void deck bench downstairs n continue talkin.
n he kept askin mii to go up my hse to take poker cards
tat reminded mii of da tyme when mii, zena n geraldine were sittin on TAT EXACT SAME BENCH n played gamblin wif poker cards.
but eventually i didnt.
saw my mum.
quickly hide.

after tat went to white sands wif family.
i luk so damn matured.
coz i tie bun n put tat chopstick through it.
this sb i dunn even noe sms to sae happy deepavali.
denn i forr fun sms back hu are euu.
denn da person reply i think in indian bout sth, endin wif an exclaimation mark.
???