on monday after skool, estalla, dickson, justin n mii hung out.
ate lunch at downtown east.
denn justin kept complainin food veri ex. yeah wadever. denn dunn eat.
i was da first to start eatin n da last to finish.
damn justin asked mii to hurry up n both hymm n dickson purposely stare at mii eat my last spoonful.
told myself not to luk at them but eventually still laughed n spit my laksa out.
so pai seh.
we ate finish everi thang before we pay.
walked to white sands n shop.
denn went back to downtown east to meet sume guys at da beach.
muhd n hassan went out, left haziq n yu hin.
its jus kinda lonely. too empty.
estalla took 354 n obviously haziq n yu hin went off wif her.
when their bus passed by mine, stupid haziq pointed middle finger out at mii.
tot he so cool, arh? lol.
haziq lied to mii bout sth but yeah, why should i take it to hart?

today, before IPW, i told estalla," today, we wont let IPW affect our moods."
i said it fast n low, so at first estalla couldnt catch it.
i asked myself, why should i be lyke this?
but at tymes, i still need to chill n calm down.
we are stuck, tats da fact.
admit it.
lunch, mii n estalla went to 7 eleven bought cup noodles n chips. (unhealthy, izznt it?)
saw our chairman, jing yuan.
hes alone.
my mee goreng noodle is supposed to put da sauce after da noodle is heated n dried but i forgot.
ruined da effect.
haziq stuck to us.
mii n estalla eat at da stone walls of da HDB flats n he have to care.
haha so eventually we ate at da void deck.
haziq kept eatin estalla's chips. hah.
now is haziq's turn to luk at us eat, which felt funny.
back to skool forr dance, we are still yeah, horrible.
feel so wadd wif da table tennis ppl lukin at us.
veri damn uneasy.
sume of us had a talk bout "my fav. topic".

sigh, my feelin n lyfe currently is neutral.
neither am i happy, nor am i sad.
but im still real confused.
seriously stuck in da whirl of "emotion outbreak of 2R6'07"
i see ppl round mii hurt, sumetymes i seriously dunno wadd to do to help.
im jus too... fucked up.
too confused.
i cant make a decision forr them.
but i cant stand round doin nuthin.
lyfe cannot go on lyke this.
sb must make da change.
so here comes... superman/woman.
but hu da hell is he/she???