finally officially FOURTEEN.
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over da period of turnin from 13 to 14, ive gone through a lot.
tymes when i was real HIGH. (psss! 3rd march!)
tymes when i was thinkin suicide.

i hereby thank everi one hu had been dere forr mii, to support mii when i fell, bring happiness when i was down, lend a shoulder to cry on...

lyfe has been tough.
real tough.
everi moment fightin against all da obstacles present in this lyfe of mine.
strugglin to keep my head above da water level.

today has been a kinda long LONG dream.
i seems to be floatin rather.
n this feeling izznt gd.
i feel... unsettled. uncomfortable.
even though da prob is kinda solved, but why do i still feel this way?
my brain seems to be fallin out of my head,
my stomach seems to oppose everi thang i eat.

i feel tat im frownin everi minute, but when i asked Estalla, she sae dunn have.
when i was back home, i checked da mirror.
ay, my eyebrows have slight movement.
wadd am i still thinkin of?
wadd am i still worried bout?

am i still dreamin of Fall Out Boy, tat other aspects of my lyfe even such a special day izznt important ani more?
am i feelin lost tat i have nuthin to luk forward to?
am i feelin regret bout sth?
or am i jus plainly having mood swing?

on da bus back home, i kept thinkin bout this.
n now denn i realize i probably havent come out of da Fall Out Boy, partyin daze to face reality.
reality... arh..

today da onli thang i felt truly happy n excited bout is... ay... FALL OUT BOY.
tat damn band n my bloody pete wentz.
durin VL lesson, i was still thinkin bout da concert...
n ani body notice? i was grinnin to myself.
I AM ADDICTED.
i cant get enuff of them.
i want more!
i was doodlin on my "Crap" bk, drawin n writin all sorts of thangs related to them.

i tot everi one forgotten bout this day.
reeli thank da first person hu wished mii Happy Birthday today at 2++ am though i onli saw it at 7++ am.
at least i noe i may not be singin "Sad Birthday" to myself.
whole family overslept this mornin so i didnt eat breakfast at home.
bought a cup of coffee from McDonald tat practically blessed my shakin body.
but my legs are still quite wobbly when walkin to skool.
i forgotten i cant drink coffee without eatin sth.
i onli rmb tat durin recess but by denn ive lost my appetite.

hmmm havent thank those ppl hu wished mii today.
n da prezzies they gave.
THANK EUU PPL OUT DERE, EUU NOE HU EUU ARE!
da pink billabong slippers are real nice.
tyme to change mine.
credits to: estalla, jolyn, joyce, dickson, jasper n justin.
Blossom!!! thank euu forr everi thang!!!
craig, if euu think euu are gonna make mii fat wif da chocolates, DREAM ON!
but still, thanks.

i tried smilin today but i felt lyke a weak patient hu could not bring her face muscles to stretch.
so let mii return all da smiles in written form.
=) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =)

science test result was pretty well.
literature wasnt tat well written. i failed. but to no surprise.
english was okay. mr ng go scare mii.

lunch, kinda forced myself to eat sth.
eventually i spent quite a lot.
im back to likin red.
bought a choket wif a red hart along wif jolyn n estalla, red nail polish.

today i did a lot of daydreamin.