Morning started out cheerfully.
Though i was sitting on the bus alone, i felt that inner peacefulness inside me.
Theres music to accompany me.
The sky is blue. =)

Happiness comes to an end at a certain period of time.
The price to pay for getting too happy?
I was caught by ya-know-who for attire.
Okay and he HAD to shout, scream, humiliate me in front of everyone.
And sth got into me, i talked back.
I rather have detention.
Detention sounds fun.
My mood: disbelieve > embarrass > piss off > hurt > confuse > and dont know what shit.
I was the last to get tested.
And yeah hes gonna watch me from today onwards.
Hows that for dessert?

Dickson heard all my "prawn" language come out of my mouth.
All the "siah, siah siah".
I hate speaking singlish, and yeah it came out of my mouth, how ironic?

After that, i still felt my cheeks burning.
Like im being watched by everyone.
But who wanna look at me, man.
They just wanna watch the scene replaying inside me.
And laughed.
Okay maybe at least its better than seeing me in a granny's swimsuit grinning at the camera WITH my teeth.

Craig was still happily rubbing salt into my wound.
*rub rub rub*
But the thing is, i dont produce enough platelets to defend myself.
So it hurts.
Sometimes sth or sb appear in your life that you hate or dislike, but actually they benefit you a lot more than you expected.
So im weak.
I failed to control my emotions once again.
I need more practices.
Til i feel numb.
(But hey there are still times when i wanna enjoy crying my heart out)

But still i wanna say sth bout Craig.
I finally could ans your ques (though you wont be reading this).
You are insensitive.

But thanks Jol today.

Like i say, im giving up on you.
Since i stand no chance.
I dont expect much too.
But it takes time.

Haziq showed me his NCC song.
Damn horny man.
Since they are all guys, they can talk bout girls anyhow they like.
So well my dance could too huh?
Talk bout how guys are?

But there are songs out there in this world openly talking bout sex and girls on bed and so on.
Like FOB's Hum Hallelujah.

Maroon 5's Makes Me Wonder.
"The way it felt between your thighs
Pleasure that made you cry"

"Her fingers running through my hair, but it's all just fiction
She steps out from her underwear, so beautiful!"

"Standing there in your underwear and new pumps
It's like the more time we waste and less time I get to taste you"

"When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?
....
I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck "