I am trying to shut off the world for once. (Weirdo huh?)
Like not contacting anyone outside of the house.
But failed.
Well, it was hard to do that when you live in a fast-paced society like now.
Once you missed sth, thats it, you are dead meat.
Prepare to roll the doldrums! (Whatever that means)

Wednesday

Out with Jolyn and Blossom.
Only Jol swam so we just watched her.
Blah it rained after that and ruined other plans set.
Blossom bought a red brolly.
At her house, the organ was wonderful with its music in it.
Felt myself getting into the soul of it.
We were pondering over B's old photos.
Her bro's poses were like HAH!
Cant stop laughing.

Thursday

Quarrels and stuffs.
Oh Zena slept at my house while waiting for her mother.
So the wedding she attended that night, i owned every single thing on her body except the undies if im not wrong (SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH)

Friday

Gym with B.
Number of gorgeous guys =)
Theres this guy with oh-so-gorgeous-if-you-want-to-call-that legs.
Its like super slim and er smooth?
No hair one.
Seriously i cant stop staring at the legs.
Its like you could put a silk cloth on it and it will flow down, like in the shaver advertisement.
Serious, you should take a look at it.

Current mood: Not so good.
She is the one that he loves. End of story.




Sunday

I went to Joyce's church after my parents and i went to eat breakfast and shopped the sunday market (notice my sis didnt go & HAH jiayi become an auntie too)
Her church is that kind of typical church you see in tv, but well, its my first time entering such a grand place.
HAHA!
The people over there were very friendy towards each other, like that kind of happy family scenario?
I was freaking tired by noon.
I was shocked when people need to kneel down during their service.
It was weird attending church converse in chinese.
Imagine attending buddhist stuffs in English? Or French???

Sorry Rachel, i didnt support you shaking bubble tea at your carnival! =(

My sis and the dog

Oh Brownie the dog came to my house a few days ago. My couz's one. She's 30++ actually (!!!)
Well Brownie received a lot of err... dog-lovers coming to visit her (rather than me)?

People who came today: Zena, Geraldine, Zena's friend, Jolyn and dear old Blossom.

My mum says shes going Thailand next month. Without us. !!! So even if i dont come home, she also wont know. Ai, joking.

Looking at things through frantic eyes, i cant help feeling this way.

I hereby wish everyone a Merry Christmas beforehand. (brought to you by Cold storage, hah!)
I have a pink mattress, pink bolster, pink pillow, pink blanket currently.
WHAT THE HELL?!?
PINK!
PINK!
PINK!
Happening: To Airport Terminal 3
People present: Estalla, Min Lin, Dickson, Jasper, Craig, Haziq, Keith and me
Some of us ate at the staff canteen.
Wow wasnt my soya bean drink hot?
Smoke twirling all around.

THE TOILET WHERE CAN SEE THE AIRPLANES! LIAR YOU! (to that guy who says toilet is the nicest place in t3 on news)


Poetry of Rain by ~EarthMother4742

The poetry of rain washes within me
Like the falling notes of a lost lullaby
The sheet music disintegrating in cold strokes
Of a sad memory being washed away

The flame has eternally gone out
Only to be rekindled by a drought
Made of a sun of untold longing
And a desert of unspoken desires

But now it is only raining
The sky that is my soul is overcast
To know love would be the wind
Blowing these clouds of depression away

I long to dream beneath this wet caress
To sooth the loneliness that erodes
The loosely stitched outline of my heart
Letting loose monsters of emotions I wanted locked away

Let this rain form a river
Weaving over and under my cold skin
Enclosing me in a web of a lost world
That shall never be discovered to become the new

Allow this rain to drown me
To fill my empty eyes with something to see
Besides the memories
For they blind my mind into thinking there is hope

Let this rain
Wash away the sins of my past
Let this rain
Cleanse me so that I may know again

Don't shelter me from it
For it will seep right through
Digging and flooding and chilling
Till I am nothing but sand at the bottom of eternity

Since my time has run out
The wind will come to carry me away
He will blow the clouds from my lifeless form
And take my soul away forever

But the rain will find you
In some shadow you will smell its breath
It will drown you too
And you will know the new longing- for death.



Yesterday was raining. Again. Found this poem pretty cool so sharing it here.

MY HEART IS GLOWING! WEE!
(this is how we look like, white. no need whitening cream.)
Check out the lyrics. A song derived from the bible as so said from Wikepedia. Comes from the book of Revelation written in first person account and refers to the punishment of Babylon The Great, world empire and seat of false religion.

"Beast And The Harlot" by Avenged Sevenfold

This shining city built of gold, a far cry from innocence,
There's more than meets the eye round here, look to the waters of the deep.
A city of evil.
There sat a seven-headed beast, ten horns raised from his head.
Symbolic woman sits on his throne, but hatred strips her and leaves her naked.
The Beast and the Harlot.

She's a dwelling place for demons.
She's a cage for every unclean spirit,
every filthy bird and makes us drink
the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings.
Fallen now is Babylon the Great.

The city dressed in jewels and gold, fine linen, myrrh and pearls.
Her plagues will come all at once as her mourners watch her burn.
Destroyed in an hour.
Merchants and captains of the world, sailors, navigators too.
Will weep and mourn this loss with her sins piled to the sky,
The Beast and the Harlot.

She's a dwelling place for demons.
She's a cage for every unclean spirit,
every filthy bird and makes us drink
the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings.
Fallen now is Babylon the Great.

The day has come for all us sinners.
If you're not a servant, you'll be struck to the ground.
Flee the burning, greedy city.
Lookin' back on her to see there's nothing around.

I don't believe in fairytales and no one wants to go to hell.
You've made the wrong decision and it's easy to see.
Now if you wanna serve above or be a king below with us,
You're welcome to the city where your future is set forever.

She's a dwelling place for demons.
She's a cage for every unclean spirit,
every filthy bird and makes us drink
the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings.
Fallen now is Babylon the Great.[x2]
Yesterday

Was at Ikea alone (loner!), walking aimlessly.
Looking at the decorations that could be essential for my dearest room.
Saw this wrapper/wallpaper in different hues of purple that will be pretty suitable.
But didnt buy, gonna drag somebody along one day and ask for advice.

Today

If i wrote this post in the morning, it will be so damn emo. But now im not in the mood to write that. Im in the mood to fight for survival. (erm not exactly like those in Titanic)

Speaking of Titanic, i watched that a few days ago. It was really nice but i think i watched before but it doesnt ring a bell to me. Even downloaded the song.

Ngee Ann's Opening Day.

The 2 hrs of standing by at our CCA station got us 10 hrs of CIP hours. =)
After our shift, Candice, Alster and I went TM to eat.

SUSHI!

We had to perform 4 times at the foyer. Well theres practically no audience. But blah.

I was searching high and low for ginger to cook into ginger water.

True, i dont really like ginger but adding some black sugar, its not bad. Kill the bloatness of the stomach.

(But i forgot to wash the ginger when i found it eventually)

Back to Meridian yesterday.
Mr Eric Lim is gonna retire so we were back for his tribute.
I was shocked when i saw Mrs Yvonne Ng with a big stomach.


Mr Lim and I.

I didnt recognize Xue Wei!
I was whispering to Geraldine, "Is that Leonard's sister?" (pointing to XueWei)
Leonard slimmed down a lot.
So thats the good thing bout joining judo.?
Good for him!

Mr Tay, p3 and 5 science teacher. (typical science teacher gone mad)
He ordered pizza, PIZZA HUT somemore!
Ate it in the Life Science Room.
That guy sacrifised a lot for us.

Leonard, Me, Mdm Lim (p6 chinese techer, still rmb who i am!) and of course the next ppg, Geraldine =)
The first thing Mdm Roslinah saw me is compare the pimples on my face and hers. (!!!)
When i asked her bout her son, this was what she said, "As pretty as the mother!"

Mr Chee. The good looking teacher but too dark to be seen here.
Who called us intruders when we kind of barged into the staffroom to find him.

I feel like im dying from a terminal disease or sth.
Its just unbearable.
Sorry people but i guess you are having the risk to be victims of my "terminal disease".
Or has already been.

Watched Heroes yesterday.
Im still very fansinated by the story.
By the powers of the people.
I sure do not want to have the powers of Niki Sanders, the former internet stripper.
Scary.
Most fansinating power by: Hiro Nakamura, Isaac Mendez, Peter Petrelli.
Time-space continuum. (thats why i took physics?)
UH HMMM! IM READY FOR A LONG POST. ARE YOU?

Went visiting the Malays today with blah blah blah.
Bought presents before we went. (how can we go empty-handed?)
I wore the super-high high heels so as to compare heights with the talls. (ya lah, short.)Reached Haziq's hse at round 1.30 or is it 1.45?The 2 were competing who ate the most chicken wings.
The score: Craig - 5. Haziq - 4.Do i look part of the family???
HAHAHAHAHA.Keith's hse was actually a few storeys from one of my relative's!
Exact same unit too! (boasting, boasting)The Shepherdson book.
Got Keith's name in it too!
More chicken wings.

Estalla left after Keith's.

The rest of us proceed on to Ms Zahra's house. 2 cats and that freaked Joyce out of her skin.

The kitchen was actually in the backyard. We had MORE chicken wings. I finally decided to ignore my cough and start on one.
Actually i didnt know how i got it (Haziq said it was him), but i know ive spread to some others. Beware Jolyn if you are gonna meet me sonner!

Haziq and his toot toot toot.
Happy reunion.
& thats how we ended the day. (at 7.00 plus)

Sort of.

We did sth in common at all 3 houses.

LOOK AT BABY PHOTOS! =)
Haziq had ********************
We only saw one of Keith's. He didnt want to show us =(
Ms Z's ones were cute.
She had the same hairstyle as me (and min lin) when she was young.
Straight chin length hair and bangs.
She also showed us her backpack trip to parts of Europe like London, Berlin, Norway...
Cool huh?

Craig cant stop looking at the train maps rather.
Joyce cant stop eating though shes full.
&& she kept screaming at Haziq for sth he said.
Whole estate can hear her already.
Min Lin ah... (laughs)
The 3 guys were all wearing black today.
Funny huh? For visiting.

Photos for 8th November 2007, Thursday (Escape Theme Park with Min Lin, Craig & Keith)
It feels so nice to bash Craig. =)


Act innocent lah, act innocent!
WEDNESDAY

Today was a great day overall.
Was at Craig's with Keith and Daniel.
Our day was occupied with different kinds of board games.
Personal board game cafe?
Monopoly, Boggler(?), UNO Attack(yeah, board game, RIGHT), Cluedo, Pictionary & another kind of UNO.
Daniel and I were losing for Monopoly.
All thanks to KEITH SHERPERSON(sorry i only know how to pronounce, not write), the money-minded guy.
Strike a pose!

I love Cluedo!
(Because i won.)
I had "great chemistry" with the others in Pictionary.
Hah.
How do you expect to draw Pamela Anderson?!?
A woman stripping???
Then just call it a striper, simple as that.

TODAY
Went Escape because of free ticket.
(Greedy greedy greedy)
I overcame my phobia of Go-Cart!
Came in 4th. (though i was the 2nd to left but never mind, at least i wasnt the last)
Carefree by ~Slowly-Slipping

Holding emotions,
Vows of love and trust,
It's not what I want,
I need lies and lust.

Not looking for love,
I don't want to fall,
I want to be free,
I don't want it all,

If I have nothing,
Then I'll be just fine,
I won't have to say,
That man is mine,

I'll run for a mile,
I'll laugh, I'll play,
I'll do what I want,
Won't watch what I say.

I just want to have fun,
I want to run wild,
To be carefree,
Not well-mannered and mild,

I want to go crazy,
Be completely insane,
To have no reason,
Cause no pain,

Just to be mine,
In my frame of mind,
To have my own purpose,
My path to find...
The bottle was deformed when i attempted to pour hot water into it.
It all started on a Saturday... (sounds like the starting of a story?)
Was with Craig & Min Lin.
Saw Zena and she was sunburned (when she told me later on)
Then Alex & Min Lin for bball.
Alex and Min Lin were debating whether to go to Hougang or Tampines due to lack of "experienced" bballers in my area.
Apparently, the people over here prefer to play soccer on a bball court.
Eventually we landed up playing... (guess what!)

HOPSCOTCH!
*laughs*

Alex playing hopscotch?!?
Haha, everyone should have seen how he played.
He kept accusing me of stepping on the line.

I realised these days im getting quite lame & childish.
But pretending to be a child, will i be experiencing pure happiness?
Maybe i do.
That kinda of naive thinking & childish behaviour.
Maybe it works.
You will never know if you never try.
(grow up, girl!)
*sticks out tongue*

Arbitrary Nature of Infidelity

arbituary - not seeming to be based on any reason or plan

infidelity - the act of not being faithful to wife or husband by having sexual relationship with sb else.

Extra marital affair. Not unusual these days? Go watch the movie "Unfaithful" and you will know what im talking bout.

Once it starts, it cant be stop.

Would you go after temptations, knowing it is wrong? Are you following your heart? What if your heart tells you to do the wrong thing? (its possible, right?) Would you still listen?

Knowing about all these... things, will you have phobia bout growing up? (what a stupid thing)

When i was bout 9, i wished i was 13. When i am 14, i just wished i was a child, an adult, anything but the current me. Okay actually not that bad.

"Is There No Truth In Beauty?" by Just Surrender

This is how it’s been, this is how it will be
and when you wake up with him, remember when it was me
and I always will be waiting for you
and I know that you will never see...that

I can’t break away from these chains to my heart
the further you push me the closer you are
maybe I should try to let go
maybe I should try to walk away
there’s nothing left to say, yeaheeyeah

Do you remember when, you used to laugh there with me
and now I’ve become the joke, a punchline’s all I will be
and I always will be waiting for you
and I know that you will never see ...that

I can’t break away from these chains to my heart
the further you push me the closer you are
maybe I should try to let go
maybe I should try to walk away
there’s nothing left to say

You’ll be waiting for the rest of your life
just so you can finally hear me say
These words don’t mean a thing but I’ll say them anyway
...anyway, yeah

I can’t break away from these chains to my heart
the further you push me the closer you are
maybe I should try to let go
maybe I should try to walk away
there’s nothing left to say...but

I can’t break away from these chains to my heart
the further you push me the closer you are
maybe I should try to let go
maybe I should try to walk away
there’s nothing left to say, yeahheahh
‘cause I can’t break away

Okay whats with the emo lyrics.
No, im not being emo here.
Im lacking emotions rather.
Whats better? Stoning or emo-ing?
Everyone's emo-ing nowadays.
Its time to change the trend.
Before someone started complaining its boring.
You ask me, how can one control one's feeling?
Yes, true.
No, i havent finish my piece yet.
Erm, wait, ive forgotten what i wanna voice out.
Never mind.

I dont know how others out there could manage to hide their true feelings.
Reason: they dont wanna pull down others' feelings too?
Reason: they wanna escape the fact they are feeling that way?
I guess i am not on the same FM as the others.

People are starting to rise up a campaign against emos.
Anti-emos.
Or have they already started it long ago?
Then im slow.

i lost my inspiration to qrite this post...

Okay i grab it.
Last time i used to write damn lot of emo emo statements.
Now i dont.
Hardly.
Why?
Maybe i wasnt that attracted to the Dark like i used to last time.
Maybe i didnt want to get out of it.
You just kind of get more and more into it.
Til you cant pull yourself out any longer.
Only you yourself can save yourself from yourself.
29/10, Monday

I was rushing around that day.
Arrived at chalet at around 5?
Had pizza for dinner.

The others tricked me and locked me in the balcony when i arrived.

This is Yee Si, being tricked for the gazillion time. Okay actually we just pushed her in.Sarah, locked in the balcony. Animal on display. & all of us are taking shots of her.Jersey cum dress.
We went Changi Beach and played the swings.
It was really fun despite the not-so-good mood.

Got really dirty.

30/10, Tuesday
I had to leave early in the morning but we went to watch sunrise (but equal to none 'cause cant see)
Was quite tired after lacking of sleep.

Somehow or other, the carrying/piggyback trend is on.

We had bbq at night.
We started late as the guys werent back in time.
There were some conflicts among each other.

31/10, Wednesday

Happy Halloween!
Some ppl went back home.
Jolyn, Estalla and i went back but after that Estalla and i came back.
Replenish some sleep.
We had ANOTHER bbq at night.
Joyce came back for it after her guides along with Yee Si and Pei Wen.
And water bombs and splashing later.
Most of us were wet.


Water bomb.
Somehow or other the fire appear purple in the pic. Roasted marshmellows.


I finally got to take a ride in Ms Zahra's car.
It was cool.
We drove around and around and listened to the radio.
Had to duck when see the traffic police because i was sitting on laps due to insufficient space.
Watched some movies and everyone was beat.
I woke up once and every single ppl were sleeping.
Creepy.
We finally got out of that ant-infested area.

Im cutting everything short because im dead beat.
(you asked, short meh?)

I had extreme moods during the chalet.
Sorry if ive done sth wrong for the past few days.
I didnt mean to when i got high.

Wish i was a lil kid with no burden, responsibity and complex emotions.